April 27th, 2002


on flying again

It's always stressful to start flying again after a hiatus. Can I still do it? Have I lost too much skill? Will I remember how the plane feels in a flare? In a stall? In a properly-coordinated 60-degree bank?

Finally, I've heard from my flight instructor.

To answer your question, yes, I will have some time in the upcoming weeks to fly with you. I agree, a couple of hours to bust of the rust might be in order but we'll see how things go when we get in the air. After you feel comfortable and there is a consensus between us that your ready, I'll schedule with you a bi-annual flight review.

I'm so excited to be in the air again that it makes me wonder why I let these lapses last so long. Fear and shame balance anticipation, I guess. Come to think of it, the same thing happened today at my grandmother's funeral. I was so worked up catastrophizing about how terrible it was going to be that I barely noticed that it was actually a fairly thoughtful, low-key, spiritual ceremony, and that it was nice to see cousins again that I haven't seen in, what, TWENTY YEARS? Of course it was sad, and people shouldn't die. But my anxious imagining of it was far worse than it actually was. So with getting back in the cockpit, I suppose.

More to work on.

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